i'm survive, at least.

wow!! end 2012.. never thought could pass this hard year. a passed away good friend, being jobless, and crash down in college. wonder how i could survive and still alive till now. god's mercy. i'm working to fix mess i've made. i closing some of my social media account, maybe this blog will have it turns soon, maybe. world spinning around and i losing my self in it. hard to feel safe in mist of smiling face people but could kill you instead. help me one thing, help me to write again. to be me like days before. its funny when some people really trying to be like you but you runaway because hate your self. life is so damn funny!! so help me, would you?