psssssttt

keep it
dont tell anyone, just us


*others: yeah! I know what you've been hiding from us, its no longer secret anymore

stuck can make suck

do whatever make you happy
wear anything make you feel pretty
say any words that can make you free

do, act, and live your live

*this circle made me questioning why life begun and ended in mysterious way, why God put troubles only to lift us up, and why I had this kind of life experience while others dont...life oh life why you bring this sucks and make me feel so stuck, huft!

a loner deserve to be alone

You know...

You know you just alone and become a loner by your self.

When you work as hard as you can, even harder than anyone's thought -- including your self.
Do everything (breath, breakfast, walk, talk, etc) systematically.

You know you just alone and become a loner by your self.

People might known you as a brave heart, never see pain in your cold eyes, not have a warm smile only skeptical point of view but you call it as rational.
You know you were not an opportunist but time falling you there. You start to miss a lot of memorable moment, but you ignore it and say "things change so do life".

You know you just alone and become a loner by your self.

Later, you know that you alone but you still walking on. Work harder and do whatever to make it happen, even bigger.

You know you just alone and become a loner by your self.

You wish to stop and move back to the past, wish to make things better, to have a touch in everybody's heart.
Its too late, you stand tight watching them moving away.

You know you just alone and become a loner by your self.

You know. You miss all those smiles, hugs, kisses. A sincere from your beloved one. But you know what you have done that make them left. You thought have make more friendship out there with some neighborhood but it aint true. Respects, hand claps, attention with bouquet of flower, none of it is real that only reflection of venerate position you had.

You know you just alone and become a loner by your self.

You know, it too late to fix, so why you still depressed knowing all of these?
Move on like you used to. Do your life now with better way. Keep your beloved near, never let them go.
Enjoy the cloudy sky, put your head up and smile. Sitting in balcony and grateful for the beautiful night sky.

Cos you know you have be alone and become a loner by your self.

pertama

Pertama.
Satu kata yang selalu berarti lebih... karena dianggap lebih baik, lebih utama, lebih penting.

Dimulai dengan pertama kali jatuh cinta (first love never die, remember?) and people could say, even the last is my present and more important but I still keep my first in memory.
Trus ada anak pertama yang sukses bikin para calon orang tua gugup, takut, sekaligus cemas.
Hari pertama: sekolah, kerja, dst. Ada kesan yang lebih yang menempati memori setiap orang dihari-hari itu.
Malam pertama, menjadi spesial karena ada kata pertama kan?

Saya, belakangan sangat mengkultuskan hari pertama puasa. Mengusahakan tarawih pertama, sahur dan berbuka di rumah bersama keluarga, hasilnya? agak sedikit mengecewakan sih, tarawih pertama sukses gagal, sahur hampir di kantor tapi alhamdulillah bisa kabur (hehehe) dan buka puasa, saya kabur lagi.

See?? betapa penting makna pertama buat saya, Anda?

Dont let your day be just an ordinary day!

pelor

Semacam kutukan atau memang bawaan sejak lahir, saya dianugerahi "pelor -- nempel molor" dan belakangan hal ini semakin menjadi. Bagusnya, karena saya bekerja dibidang yang tidak ada jam kerja-tidak ada waktu pasti-tidak tahu kapan pulang kebiasaan ini menjadi baik, saya bisa tidur dimana saja termasuk didepan komputer yang masih menyala, bahkan di toilet!
Tapi, jadi sangat mengkhawatirkan waktu saya dalam perjalanan dan menggunakan kendaraan umum.
Lucunya, jaman sekolah dulu saya sering dibilang kena lalat tsetse (penyebab penyakit tidur). Mungkin dulu muka saya di sekolah seperti ini ya, hehe.
Tapi saya bukan yang paling parah, waktu sekolah dulu, rekor pelor saya dikalahkan teman yang bisa tidur nonstop gak bangun sama sekali selama 2 hari! Saya sampai heran dan dengan polos nanya "mimpi apa aja?"




Dan dibulan puasa sekarang banyak orang mengacu pada potongan terakhir dari sebuah hadist "...dan tidur adalah lebih baik lagi berpahala" haha, tidur sih gak salah tapi kalau tidurnya dari subuh dan baru bangun pas bedug magrib dimana nilai puasanya dong? Maksud hadis itu jelas lebih memuliakan tidur, JIKA dibanding berpikiran kotor, bergunjing dsb yang jelas-jelas mengurangi nilai pahala puasa.
Satu hari saya pernah tidur begitu, dan ibu saya nyeletuk "enak ya puasa kamu hari ini gak berasa, ya iyalah wong tidur seharian kaya mayat".
Yuk kita perbanyak kegiatan positif selama bulan ini lumayan buat nambah-nambah pahala (katanya kebaikan dibulan ini nilanya tripledouble), mungkin tahun depan kita gak seberuntung tahun ini (gak nyumpahin mati muda loh, hehe).

Have great fast day!