I build a wall to protect me from strangers and now it completely made me a stranger
For these past 2 year, I've become so protected with my feeling, afraid of new relationship, hiding from a new connection, I'm running away.
Thought by had it I'll be save. I'll do everything to keep 'my world'. I mean everything is everything, you can call it insane. I asked to be a robot.
And hate the fact that I am become obedient.
You know, dried leaves are still falling, even its not spring yet?
In between celebration or frustration.
My fear become real.
I'm losing the job. My bonus. My insurance.
But I get back my freedom. My self. My expression.
so then question as always pop up?
is it what am I really want? quiting from being robot and have no more facilities?
the answer is in future that I wrote with hard work, kindness and by enjoy being my self.
A word could describe my feeling is Proud.
I've walking in a tough road full with fake and illiberality ones.
And I struggle. Keeping my faith. Learn a lot the way to be a responsible leader.
I do.
My past are pass, all I want is just being me. Happy and put smile in my work.
oh world, get ready to have me back!