pagi ini

"pusing" begitu keluhku, "kenapa?" perhati mu, "gak tau nih, padahal tidurnya cukup" jawabku sekenanya, "kebanyakan tidur juga bisa bikin pusing" entahlah itu sekedar kelakarmu atau kau memang betul peduli.

Jika tidur terlalu banyak saja bisa buatku pusing, mimpi yang terlalu sering pun bisa membuatku kuyu dan layu lalu mati, kau tau?

Aku selalu berlari menjauh agar tetap terbangun.

I want to let you go
If just you know
This dream is killing me,
cos I know not even one of it is real
dream, I want you as reality
as sunlight that shine and burn me
as rain, star, pencil, drawing book or anything
I want you as reality

"sudahlah, berdamai dengan mimpimu, dengannya" temanku disela2 obrolan minum kopi
"dia punya mimpi sendiri, aku tau ia membangunnya dengan yang lain, keliatannya mereka bahagia, sebaiknya mimpiku tidak pernah lagi terlintas, bukan?" dan air mataku pun menetes.


semoga berbahagia
dari mimpi yang mungkin teringat

just...

Strangely felt so lonely and exhausted in same time.
Yeah its about my work and the deadlines of course, also my collage either papers or quizzes.
Learned a lot this past few months, one of quote I've made was 'life is about fighting'. Not fight and be stubborn but sometime I just have to fight from being a loser, for give my self what I need, fight to be heard.
Days make me more wise or I kindly think so :p that life has own way, worry less so you can enjoy and be grateful.
I am lonely, maybe it better for this time, when I even cant say will I get home today or 24 hours no longer enough for my daily routine and how tiring to keep it by my self.
And again, this is the life I've choose, God gives too much so I not suppose to complain. About this loneliness, may God show me the way. Bismillah...

called life

mine

its not about the money but my responsibility

this is what I want to do and make me feel alive
dont even try to judge or thought me bad, cos it really hurting.

if my life bother you, then live yours so i can live mine
others? i dont really care anymore

pasar

Last week I've visited pasar Anyar (somewhere around Tanggerang).
I always love to visit pasar, the people, fruits, vegetables even the smell :)






pasar selalu menjejakkan kaki pada tanah sebenarnya